“I told myself I couldn’t see you, but you’re someone who draws the eye.
But if I see you, it hurts and makes things tough for me.
After only living at the convent,
I came to live in this land of stars and was hit by electricity and lost my senses.
I flew up right into the heavens and then crashed down to the ground.
Fireworks exploded in my head and in one moment a thundering rainstorm crashed down on me.
Since I’ve left this star-land, I saw the path I am to live.
I would have to leave the star-land and just watch it from afar.
If I see the brightest-shining star close up, it’s so blinding to the eyes that it hurts.
That is why I am going to go far away.” – Mi Nam

Had been days since my last update. The quote above is from a korean drama called "You're beautiful". Park Shin Hye acted in the drama together with Jang Geun Suk, Lee Hong Ki and Jung Yong Hwa. Park Shin Hye said this to Jang Geun Suk. In the drama, she had fallen in love with him but there were obstacles between them, the STAR in this quote refers to Jang Geun Suk. Sad right? But they got together in the end, happy ending.

Moving on, i'm really bored being at home, trying my best to find some life by hanging out with friends. There's one thing i like to do the most is hanging out with fellow christ. I really enjoyed and feel relaxed in church though. It seems my mind is clear and all those troubles were gone when i'm in the church. Oh lord, you're the best! I love my carecell, i love all the activities we do, especially the up coming penang trip. I really appreciate this trip. Special thanks to Eric and Tim that brought me to this awesome church. Nice meeting all the people here. All of you are great in your own way. I really need to plan my days, being at home is seriously plain boring. I can't wait to start class. I wanted to learn up the courses fast! I feel so motivated to start class. I hope that i could handle the tension! Something caught my attention today, gold nitrate, AuH7N4O15. It is kinda interesting. I don't really know why but i think is something interesting to look on. I got a bible application in my phone! Sounds like an accomplishment! Now, i can read the bible through my phone, isn't it awesome?! Total randomness! That's all for today. Enjoy!

-You are my everything to me-

I love you very much.

Yesterday was my last day in WRC. WRC is my work place and was informed suddenly that yesterday was my last day of work. The workings there is kinda average, not really that bad but sometimes you will feel bored, no life and so on. What keeps the company going is all the great colleagues in office, i really don't feel like leaving cause of them but still i have to further my studies, so i've been forced to leave. They been through much with me, especially those close ones. This time i leave, i'm sure i wont go back there to work again. Damn sad. I'll share some pictures of my colleagues with me on my last day of work.

Boon Siong and me! He was a good person that always help me. We talked and joked bout a lot of things. =)

Vincy and me! Vincy is one of them that helped me through harsh time together with Ying thung, mei yee and also Pauline. You guys were the best person that really helped me a lot during that moment when i was very very down. Thanks!

Robert and me. My great teacher that trained me before i go on floor, 2 years ago. He was a great buddy to me, taught me well. I still remember that time. He saw me resign twice. lol

I lazy to post all pictures, if wanna see can kindly go to my facebook to have a look at my awesome colleagues. You have to add me to see the pictures as i set it to ONLY FRIENDS can view the pictures. Make sure! Ying thung, kian wee and johnny was off on Tuesday, didn't get the chance to take a picture with them, no worries, next time then! =D

Totally forgot to update my blog! SHUCKS! Green lantern was awesome!! I watched the movie on monday with our HSG carecell members! Stephen, Matthew, Garry, Chun seng, John, Eric and me went for the movie at Pavilion. We meet up in church and Garry drove us there, cause he was driving the Xtrail. We had our dinner at Wong Kok, as usual.

There won't be much spoilers bout Green lantern here, is best watch it in cinemas near you.

Ryan Reynolds played for the part, although he is 34, he is good. He was voted as one of the hottest man alive, good looking and HAWT body.

Isn't he look GOOD?! lol

Which one is better? As green lantern or deadpool? both?

The movie was nice. It actually showed how Hal Jordan ( green lantern )got his powers. I'm a fan of superheroes so i know some backgrounds of famous heroes. The movie didn't show bout the power of the ring weakness, if i remember correctly, Hal's ring weakness is Yellow. The movie also show the rise of Sinestro ( yellow lantern ) which was destined to be Hal's rival.

Sinestro. EVIL.

By the way, this the OLD green lantern looks like.

Although the outfit may not be as cool as the present green lanterns but it is equally strong. I forgot was what this character actual name. The weakness was apparently was wood, his powers could effect on wood.

That's all then, hope they will show wonder woman, flash, hawkgirl and martian. After that will be the JUSTICE LEAGUE! =D

"What's going on?" These words keep appearing in my head. These few days, a lot of unexpected things happened. I hope i could really absorb John's word, "CHILLAX". It is a mixture of chill and relax, i think. Honestly, this week i had been put into a test, testing my friendship with others. The test wasn't hard, it was devastating. This test spoils my mood for the whole week. I believe some where getting better to another level but as for some, it gone worst.

Monday was the first day of this test started, i started to worried for the friendship with someone. I can't believe at the end, it didn't went out well. I'm not very sure what was going on at first, but after that i think, all along it was my fault. The reason of this wasn't bout you, it was bout me. People told me how bad you were, honestly i started thinking that they were right. You do not appreciate me at all but after that, i could also because of my actions. Now, i don't know what to say and just leave it that way.

I'm sorry to Eric for what had happened yesterday. Everything was my fault. I'm the one should be blamed. Can't we don't argue on small matter, ok? Hope you accept my apologies!

Everything falls apart this week but thank goodness there were people around me that still help me to put all the pieces back together, especially her. =) thx. CMY

Whoa! Yesterday was a harsh day for me! Thinking back, it was full of anger and sadness filled up in my heart but today, everything is gone. Today was a good day, totally relaxed.

Today, i went out with Matthew and Garry! Our best leader and assistant of our carecell! Thanks for coming and join me with a little hang out session. I wish Eric could join us but there were no transport for him to get home. While we were at Mid valley today, we watched SUPER 8!

It was kinda awesome though! Warning first, spoiler ahead.

The movie was bout an alien escaped from a train that crashed near this town called "LILIAN". There were few young kids witnessed the whole thing as they were trying to film a show. Elle Fanning is really marvelous and pretty! Thats right, she is Dakota fanning's sister. Anyways, the story move on to the alien abduct people and devours them. The Air force actually prisoned it till it hates humans a lot. The alien just wanted to fix it's ship so that it could go back to his home planet. What a story. I don't want to spoil a lot, so is best to watch it in the cinema near you. The effects were awesome, producer was by steven spielberg, so u can imagine how good it is. I'm not sure bout you guys but i think it is a good movie. Ratings, 4 out of 5.

The next show i wanna watch is Green Lanturn! I think is gonna be an awesome one too. Planning for one either on this saturday or sunday. I know Garry is interested! hahaha. Well, that's all for now! BYE! xD

-We have the rights to a beautiful life-

Nothing special happened today, so gonna refresh bout yesterday in which it reminds me of something. It was a good saturday morning as i kinda woke up by 1130am. Had my lunch at home and Eric came pick me up at 320pm. The first thing we went was leisure mall. It seems to be this place is our best hangout spot, i don't know why so don't bother asking. We bought wristbands again for our cell members, it truly indicates our cell identity and specialty.

We had our small high tea at secret recipe. Crystal paid and treated Eric and me as she has represented her company in a badminton tournament and she got first place! I feel so happy for her! After that, things changed. When we were on our way to yong shean's house, we had a minor accident. We were going uphill and this motorcycle wasn't alert that we were there and we tried to stop on time but is too late. The brakes couldn't stop the inertia on time as he is going downhill. He had minor injuries and the bike in not in good condition. The whole situation wasn't that bad but the condition of the myvi seems worst. The bonnet dented a bit and the front bumper totally went inwards. This totally explains the quality of it, is soft. There were witness and they given their comments that the motorcycle were in the wrong as he drove out fast and didn't realize our car. He himself admitted that he was in the fault too. I went to get yong shean as the incident site is near her house. After all the commotion and time wasted on it, we settle it outside as we were kind people as the bike driver is without licence. It is not practically we wanna just let him go, is just, is better this way than do so much commotions. We totally skipped service and went to Eric's house. Tim came and get us at Eric's place. We had dinner nearby and played games. It totally wasn't Eric's fault just that i would really want him to drive more carefully next time, this time the bike driver admits his mistake. This world is full of different people, so is best to stay alert always, precaution is better than cure. It is obviously better without any accidents, just that it will happen like Drake's case.

-All around the world we're singing, all around the world we're singing your king, your kingdom comes!-

We used to be very good, after the incident, we hardly talked. When we talked again, we got a bit better, then we fought a little, silence more. I took the first step, we talked again. After that, we fought a little again, silence where there but wasn't long. Is this the cycle of whats between us?

~Place a period, tomorrow is near~

Work again, as usual, i feel so bored and tired with this job already! I didn't extend today, so after work, went to night market with Eric and Matthew! We went to OUG night market. Thank goodness that it was a nice weather today. We reached there bout 8pm, walked around and sat down for dinner. I bought rojak, lo bak gou and mua chee! Love this kind of foods!

First topic bout today is faith. Do you believe in faith? Something is just faithed to happen. Have you ever think how come you could just saw the person you know without any plans of meeting? Some of this i believe is faith. Today, i was walking to times square and u bumped to my friend that i haven met for a year plus. I believe it was faith as we so long had not meet and yet in the busy city of KL, we met each other. Honestly, this is not the first time. I always bump to SOMEONE most of the time. True but strange? Isn't amazing? It seems like god had HIS own arrangements on you.

Second is Greed. I said earlier that vincent iphone got lost right? Well, we suspect someone that is on training stole it. We try to verify it but it wasn't. Vincent said the person who took it was fishy, meaning that he could be the one that took it, sell it and bought a new one as the person's iphone seems so new. Whoever who took it, he should return it instead of taking it. This is stealing and is the act of greed. I remember what rev pastor Daniel said, if taking or asking from other people is greed (except for financial aiding purposes) and taking or asking for something you deserve ( means pray to god for money ) is fine. I forgot how to say this already! Anyways, is best to return it to the owner than keeping it for yourself, this will cause karma to you! So, don't steal!

That's all for today, have a good day! =)

~Just when I felt like giving up on us

You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak~

Woke up and looked at the time, is only 6am. I woke up from a dream that wasn't consider a nightmare but something sweet instead. I woke up is because it was something not right, is so hard to explain. It totally spoil my whole mood for the day and also cause of yesterday. These two days, everything seems not right at all. After that slept back till 8am.

My work starts at 10am and ends at 10pm. There wasn't special bout my work so i'll skip through the details. Lunch break was at 4pm, ate with Pauline, Kah Siong and Yolanda. We went to NZ curry house. She paid for my meal. Thanks! Totally wasn't in the mood for work too. Finally, Ray is back! My good TL! Boon siong is back too, awesome! Glad that there were back to wrc but i'm leaving soon. I'm so gonna miss you all! I feel so sorry for Vincent that he lost his iphone in office today. I prayed that the person that took it will have his punishment from God!

Totally had no mood today so this post will be kinda short. Final words, i feel so bad and terrible that i blamed you, i seriously know i'm in the wrong, is my fault. I forgotten how stress you were and i wasn't able to thought that until someone told me. I feel so stupid and dumb. Thank goodness that you didn't realize that but still i'm really sorry. I definitely owe you an apology, truly and deeply sorry, it wont happen again.

I just need someone to listen to me, listen to my troubles.

What a boring day! Stuck at home practically doing also nothing special. There were no plans for today, therefore i stayed at home. Woke up bout 1pm cause yesterday i slept bout 430am. Slept this late cause thinking bout someone. I guess i think a lot already.

Regarding bout the blog post, i've been listening to a lot of motivational songs. For example like "who says", "perfect" and etc. When you're down, listen to these songs. It is kinda awesome and really motivational. Always think that you can do it, believe in yourself. Nobody says you cant do it! If you think you can, you can! The power of believing is so strong that miracles will happen. All you gotta do is tell yourself to prepare beforehand, the road will get tough but be strong and have the willpower to continue. Never have a thought of giving up. When you reach the end of the road, you will see that everything had fall into place just like you wanted it.

This is the first post and this section is dedicated just for the one i love. I'm very sorry i'm gonna say this. I deeply apologize if i offended you in any ways, i'm sorry that i love you. Although to you, we are impossible, i know. I learned to keep everything quiet now just get our friendship going. There are so many things that i can't specifically tell you. I don't know what you might think of me but through here, this is my life blog, i shall express here. I miss you a lot, i know we just hang out lately but trying not to say bout my feelings is so hard. Keeping everything bout my feelings to you is the only way for me not go overboard. I know that time i did. I wanted to ask you that, do you regret to know me? I think it is because i think too much yesterday night. I wanna do so many things with you but i know i can't. I don't know what to do and just act nothing in front of you. I feel so tired and worn out. Do you realize? I feel fatigue in all of this. I know and i'm suppose to let go but i cant. Deep down inside me says don't, i still wanna believe and put all hopes and faith in it. This is where i will be heading, even if we can't be together, it doesn't matter, just let me hurt. I want to love you and i will not make the choice of letting go right now. I'm moving on together with the feeling cause i don't think it is time for me to cast the feeling aside. Sorry, i really wanted to say this and express it out.

You are perfect to me.

What a beautiful sunday it was today, with rain. Today, was the closing of project barnabas! For your information, project barnabas is sort of an annual ceremony where pastors from different countries that are allied under our church name gathers together for general meeting( something like that). We have total of 14 different countries that are under HSG church.

Matthew fetched me from my house to church. The closing ceremony starts with the normal sunday service. Today at service, i received an inspiration from God, the word is miracles. It is related to the post title. Does anyone watched "Prince of Egypt"? This show was about moses. The main song was this song called "When you believe". The chorus goes like this, "There can be miracles when you believe, though hope is frail, is hard to kill...." . Here is the power of believing and miracles. It all start by just believe in it, you can never know what you'll see and get later on. Believe it!

After that, project barnabas closing ceremony. The song "kingdom" was played and that ends the ceremony.The flag bearers were there, all of us prayed for beloved pastors and took a HUGE picture of each and everyone of us there. Then, we went on for lunch. Gosh, mcdonalds! I try my best to stop eating mcdonalds for sometime but i don't know who's idea was it to eat lunch there. My diet is so ruined. By the way, Eric is in Singapore, i wonder how he is over there? Imagining..... " ERIC: GET ME OUT OF HERE...." I don't think that would really happen. " ERIC : I WANT TO STAY HERE FOREVER.." That's more like it. I know he likes other countries better than Malaysia. Talking bout leaving, Pastor Daniel was saying that leaving is essential for entering, so leave Malaysia. Shin and me totally stunt for a while and laughed.

Your belief determines your action and your action determines your results, but first you have to believe. - Mark Victor Hansen

Life goes on without saying anything spectacular. Have a great day!

After 3 days of rest, today i went back to work. I felt a bit rusted but still manageable to do my job. When i was on the way home, i was listening songs and the playlist was playing this song. This song actually sang by Rihanna, i think it is kinda a good song, really amazing. This song suits her well, like started she sang Unfaithful.

Let's go back to the main topic, while i was listening to this song, i slowly understands the lyrics and it gave me an inspiration. It kinda related to something i shared in yesterdays carecell. I believe everyone has it's own desires, which will also tend to want it very bad. When you started to want it so bad, you will never come to think in case you might not get it. When someone fails to get it, they will feel disappointed, emotional and lifeless. Although to most people, they will feel that everything is almost within grasp but when you really see it, it actually is far away from you. People tend to feel this way due to their fondness towards their desires. I would like to emphasize that desires and dreams are different, don't get mix up guys! I wanted to say is that even though the desires seem is a must to have it but do u ever think properly that is it really necessary? Before looking towards to get your own desires, first you gotta ask yourself and think whether do you really should get it? or is it important to you? or what if you don't get it, will you think that your life becomes meaningless? As for me, i came to realize actually it wont affect me very much if i don't get it. I'm not sure bout you guys but just wanna let you all know and don't be disappointed if you put your hopes too high and don't get it. I would like to apologize if i offended anyone reading this passage. Just to be clear again, desires and dreams are different. I forgot to mention that this implies to selfish desires!

Moving on to dreams. Everyone should have a dreams, dreams are imaginary. Everything starts because of imagination. Imagination is the greatest thing of all and it brought dreams along. Each and everyone of us have their own dreams to achieve. What keep us going is our dreams that we wanted to achieve, nothing can stop us to achieve our dreams. If one wanted to achieve their dreams, they need patients. No one should rush into things, this will only shatters your dreams instead and you gotta start from beginning again. Never say that you dreams is gone without giving a try to pursue it. As i said it in the earlier post, how do you know the outcome before even trying it? To achieve your dreams, never and don't even think bout giving up! Try your very best to achieve your dreams, you may feel the road might be tough but you gotta tell yourself that you can do it! At the end of the road lies your dreams that once you reach there, it is no longer a dream, it is a fact, cause it came true!

We grow great by dreams. All big men are dreamers. They see things in the soft haze of a spring day or in the red fire of a long winter's evening. Some of us let these great dreams die, but others nourish and protect them; nurse them through bad days till they bring them to the sunshine and light which comes always to those who sincerely hope that their dreams will come true. - Woodrow Wilson

P.S

For SA - Know you had problems, no worries, i'm here to listen and try my best to help you.

For myself - never give up on you dreams! banish all selfish desires!!

Today was my official offday for this week, went to hang out with my best buddy Eric and Shin, not to leave out John too. First thing this morning was looking back to yesterday and still worried bout what had happened. After that, sudden call from Eric that he is coming now. Gosh! So sudden, luckily manage to prepare on time.

Got ourselves at pavilion but i went to office instead. When i got up to office, first thing was looking for justin but he was off today. Then, look for people seating at my place. Totally gave a hysterical look towards kian wee new hair style. I talked with June a while than got to change off day with Johnny so that sunday i can off to see project barnabas closing ceremony! I went to vincy's place to get my resign letter printed out to gave it to hwee tin. Finally, i sent my resign letter and i'm officially going to leave soon. I will definitely miss you guys and i know i wont go back to work again, but i will be back some time to see any old faces that is still there. There are so many people i gonna miss! Anyways, i decided to help out also and going to work part time a while. My official last date is 16th June but i will be converting to part time from 17th June onwards. I think my really last working date in wrc is somewhere end of June.

I walked to farenheit 88's sushi zanmai for lunch. My 3 days in a row lunch is at sushi zanmai. GOSH! After that John came here to join us. We got X-men First Class movie tickets and we went to snowflakes. I seriously like snowflakes, it is awesome! Our movie was at 3pm so we went to the movie bout 3.05pm. We made it on time and skip the advertisements. The movie was awesome! It was 2 hours and 15 minutes long! Talk bout a good show! We came out and then John realized that he left his pouch at snowflakes. He went there to get it bout the staff there said an old lady claim it earlier. Is strange but true, in the pouch is just a bible and a notebook. I wonder why anyone wanna steal it. I felt sad for John.

The next stop was at Star Village at OUG. We went there for dinner with cell members and with two great pastors. One from philippines and one from india. We had an awesome western dinner there and both of the pastors were treated by us. I really love the food, it taste so good! We continued our carecell at church together and joined by the pastors. They observed and had fun together in the carecell. I love our cell, all the good activities, laughters and the most important bout this cell is caring. We are a big family in this. Thank you! I believe the pastors had a great time here at our cell. Supper was at nathan's corner! Saw some familiar faces, went to say hi to them. Is been a while, so long didn't see my school friends.

Finally, i would like to say that now the past is a fact but it ain't important anymore. Those bad moments in the past had became yesterdays and do no need to feel skeptical bout it. Take it as a lesson and learn it. Now, what is important is the present! Do what u can do now, question yourself what you want to do now. The future can wait, never to worry how good or bad the future may gets cause you never know the outcome. The future will be better if you start to plan it now and all starts from now. If you keep thinking how bad the future will be then how you gonna start to do it now? Present determines your future!

Tomorrow still got work, so thats all for now! Have a good day and god will bless you all!

P.S

for 2 persons that i hanged out with yesterday: if everything is ok already then is good.

for myself : Always remember that you got your friends and family that supports you!

Second day of my life and yet i find it amazing. Everything went great today except for a minor/ major unexpected things happen today. I kinda love what happened today between all of us except for the that unexpected thing. Let's just keep that thing aside.

Lunch was great at sushi zanmai! I really love that place, environments great & foods great. 3 of us ate at there and was rm40. Cheap? I think so. Sorry to bore you guys though at this day, all of this was so unplanned for, can blame me for not planning it earlier. I tried to get movie tickets but it sold out, so technically that is not my fault. I know we've been walking around and practically almost did nothing much at all. I would like to apologize if today really bores you guys and especially to him, if today i said too much, please forgive me.

Dinner at McD, i got the final green cup!! It looks great. Chatting in mcd and looking for locations to take pictures. We went to different toilets to get a better picture. It was kinda weird but at least we got some good pictures. We had our funny moments today and unhappy moments, at least we shared it out. So tiring after all this walkings, i definitely need a massage.

P.S

for pauline, please don't be angry ok? =(

for casper, thanks.

for myself, TRY YOUR VERY BEST!

Got nothing much to write and that is all. Have a good day!

Welcome peeps! I personally invites you to my life! Welcome aboard to richie's life transit.

First, i'll intro a bit bout myself. I'm just an ordinary guy, have breathed for 20 years and more to come. I lived somewhere in KL and near to a famous shopping mall. My life fluctuates a lot but i get used to it already and i think it is part of life., it makes everything challenging. Where's ups with no downs and where's downs with no ups? Plain constant makes everything BORING! Anyway, currently i'm working in wisma genting as a customer relation officer, not a bad job but it bores. I'm leaving the company soon though.

Second, actually today will be the start of my new life, new me. I can feel it in my bones that i changed, even my best friend, Eric says that i feel different today. He's right, this is the start of something new to me. Last time i will tend to live on with my emotional self but now not anymore, i embrace life challenges and will definitely smile and happy more than ever. This new me means so important to me, i think my friends could accept the new me. Some attitudes that is bad will change and those good things will remain. I will try my very best to change a better look too. Hope i could attract people ( HAHAHAHA) . This is where i start and how i will begin the new me. Actually i embraced for today, made preparations and now, i'm so excited.

Last but not least, this blog posts will be all bout my life, my surrounding and part of my friends. I wanted to share bout my life goings, not just only me and also my friends and me. Future posts some will include pictures or videos and may also dedicated for my friends. I wanted to share my life to those people i know and some i may not know. Hope you guys will like my blog, future updates will be notified through facebook. Hope you all enjoy reading it too! CHEERS!

P.S

for Eric, good luck in your final exam that is coming soon!

for YS, all the best in UTAR!

for kian wee and kai liang, cheer up man! life has it's ups and downs! I will be there to support you!

for casper and wei keat, good luck in your studies!

for pauline, take care of your health!!

for cell/ church members, i pray that project Barnabas for this week will go smoothly!

for myself, A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step!

BYE! =)